Post by Erica Chan on Mar 30, 2010 3:04:48 GMT -5
Wow, I wanted to make sure I had a post in every forum, but this certainly wasn't the way I intended to...
Well, put briefly I attended a lecture at 4pm today comparing the femicides of Mexico to Guatemala. The subject matter put me into a space beyond crying. And then, after being stuck in traffic for a godawful period of time after picking my little brother up from his holiday program, I somehow crashed the car on Toorak Road.
I don't know how I managed this, since the road was absolutely deadlocked - it was a jam. I had the sun in my eyes going up a hill, and the car in front of me was white. It wasn't even a question of me being stupid and pressing on the accelerator when I knew the car was too close. I didn't actually know the position of the car in front until I crashed into it, I just thought everyone was moving slowly.
That, unfortunately made the guy in front of me crash into the car in front of him, as well as hurting his neck a little. To make me feel even more lousy, it was all entirely my fault. Now I have insurance and was covered under that car, it's just... I'm not even three months off my Ls, and I've been driving almost every day in a heavy traffic environment - going to and from Monash. I don't know how to feel about my driving record, because I even went to a safe driving course by AAMI, my insurers, and I still fucked up.
On top of it all, I know this is tiny compared to the fact that I have not been raped, killed, dismembered and liquefied like so many other girls my age. I'm so angry at the situations that no one is addressing too. The fact that the perpetrators of the horros in Guatemala are linked with the increasing violence in Mexico and the fact that they've gotten off scot-free for the last fifty years makes me want to take Ronald Reagan and personally torture him until he knows what it feels like to suffer everything that his orders led to.
*cries*
Well, put briefly I attended a lecture at 4pm today comparing the femicides of Mexico to Guatemala. The subject matter put me into a space beyond crying. And then, after being stuck in traffic for a godawful period of time after picking my little brother up from his holiday program, I somehow crashed the car on Toorak Road.
I don't know how I managed this, since the road was absolutely deadlocked - it was a jam. I had the sun in my eyes going up a hill, and the car in front of me was white. It wasn't even a question of me being stupid and pressing on the accelerator when I knew the car was too close. I didn't actually know the position of the car in front until I crashed into it, I just thought everyone was moving slowly.
That, unfortunately made the guy in front of me crash into the car in front of him, as well as hurting his neck a little. To make me feel even more lousy, it was all entirely my fault. Now I have insurance and was covered under that car, it's just... I'm not even three months off my Ls, and I've been driving almost every day in a heavy traffic environment - going to and from Monash. I don't know how to feel about my driving record, because I even went to a safe driving course by AAMI, my insurers, and I still fucked up.
On top of it all, I know this is tiny compared to the fact that I have not been raped, killed, dismembered and liquefied like so many other girls my age. I'm so angry at the situations that no one is addressing too. The fact that the perpetrators of the horros in Guatemala are linked with the increasing violence in Mexico and the fact that they've gotten off scot-free for the last fifty years makes me want to take Ronald Reagan and personally torture him until he knows what it feels like to suffer everything that his orders led to.
*cries*
Breaking in this forum quite possibly helped. And I agree that raging it out helps! Hugs back to you, and I hope you feel comfortable using this place to rage when you need to as well! 